I'm really tired

I say it again
and again
But really
I'm tired

Too tired
To entertain you
To write for you
To read you

To get ready
Every morning
And do this thing
Called life
To see others
To talk

I'm just tired
Of this whole thing

But mostly

I'm tired
Of reaching out
And waiting for you

You

The one I don't know
If I will ever see

The one I try to see
In every one I see

The one I think I found
Only to realise
It was a false alarm
And so many times

I'm really tired

Maybe you don't exist
Quit playing with me

And let me rest
In an eternal silence

Let my heart
Muffle its beats

For I know for sure
I really tried
But I'm really tired...